Broken Heart

My broken heart is mending
time is what it took
Which gave to me a chance
to take a second look

I saw myself all broken
never
to be the same
I wondered who I was
If I was even
sane

My heart that once was loving
knew forgivness,light and hope
Was filled with nothing lighted
Was dark, and dank and cold
My emotions were not mine
something foriegn
barren
alone
revenge and pain
had become
my only name

I thrashed and spewed
the venom of the tears
i cried and cried
the tears
I could not dry

I longed for
us to try
I could not understand
I could not find the why
I would not understand
I didnt want to die

Until one day I saw me
and who I had become
and knew something
I never knew

I would have to
live and love
again
WHY
Because I had to
I had to
Take my focus
off
of only YOU

-Rob

THE PEDESTAL

When I put someone on a pedestal..

Where does that put me..

My vision of a pedestal..

Is something grand ornate..

Something higher then..

More then..

Just me..

When I put you on a pedestal..
Forgive me..

For

What have I done

To You

and

To Me

Peace
-Rob

Today I Mourn - for someone forced to move on.

Today I mourn
your loss
so unimaginable
your life so
precious, significant
and loved
cherished with
future, joy and intent

today I feel angry
control there is none
reason and purpose
ripped from my grasp
understanding, compassion
none to be found
filled is my spirit
with
terror unbound
free to run rampant
no solice be found

today I shed tears
for all of your fears
all you went through
while no one
even knew

today I shed tears
for all that you loved
all that you dreamed
all that loved you

time will not mend
it wont take away
the fear and the loss
of now each new day

today I do pray
for the higher
of meaning
the knowledge
of peace,
coming to terms
and forgiving

for those all that loved
do miss you
and struggle
with all that remains
of horrifying trouble.


the meaning of life
loves and the lost
will not be ours
until in the arms
of one so much greater
who holds every answer
who filters all pain
the one and the only
the greatest
creator

today I do mourn
for you
for us all

Peace
-Rob

FORGIVNESS

Forgivness always of Self
will bring
Forgivness always of Others.

Peace
-Rob

How could I have come here?

When did I leave?
Life……….
just kept on going
Without me even knowing

Love was all around us
We.......
Two souls connected
Looking back I wonder
What had interrupted?

How could I have come here?
Where did I go wrong?
When I saw you last
There was no sorrowed past

Why did I not mention
The Love I had for you?
Why could I not see the one
So Loved………….
In front of me?

How did we come here?
When did we arrive?
Loosing our perspectives
Seeing only lies

Why did doubt become
Our only trusted friend
When did fear, blame and fault
Replace our hungry hearts?

How did we arrive here?
Why?
Is this what we choose?

When did we arrive here?
Why turn this way?

Couldn’t we have stopped it?
Is it ours whose
Love we loose?

Cut loose the blame
Why didn’t we just
Love Us?
And reach a higher plain

How did I come here?
This new and empty place
Love is now separateness
Time of unsure hearts
Never again to be?

How did I come here?
Where did I go wrong
My heart aches
For us in yesterday
Tomorrow I know must come

Why did we come here
Can't we turn around

Yesterday is gone
Tomorrow will become
Each day moves on without you
And emptiness survives

Oh why did we come here
How can love be lost
The emptiness
Is
Now my
One and only love.

My heart aches still for you
And yesterday I want!

Why did I come here
And
How do I move on?

Peace
-Rob

Dawn a New Day in the Forest of Free

What if
in the mind a memory wasn’t
the hint of recollection, reserve even doubt
a path never traveled, a path not found out

vision the forest alive and untouched
thriving in dawn n darkness alike
new with the old
all wild and free

each dawn of new day
new purpose new growth
change is unbroken
nothing is spoken

creatures do scurry to where they will go
free to explore where err they don’t know
impulse desire the fuel of their seek
out on a limb fruit is to seek

desire at risk nothings too steep
danger and peril, risk and reserve
no dousing that fire
the need at fore front
now is intent
this drive to complete

risk is not known
failure no whisper
drive and intent is all that is now

a leap and a bound
a break in the limb
the fruit of the toil
so larger then life

chance not assessed not even at start
a doubt not about
a whisper not heard
grab of the fruit
is all that is heard

the limb does it break
does the drive not succeed
is intent lost forever
in quest of the seed

vision a forest
all wild and free
dawn a new day
intent is to seek

creatures do scurry to where they will go
no story, no whisper no memory does flow

vision a forest all wild and free
dawn a new day
a forest of free
no memory to see.

Peace
-Rob